文本歌词

I'm feeling numb thinking of changing my name to crystal meth
Playin' this game holding my mic like a pistol：aiming at death
But I Love nobody alone in this world that's how I came in it
But s**t could flash and reverse the same in a minute
I don't even love life no more my *z I just live it
And I don't love love all the hurting is infinite
I cry myself to sleep sometimes wept the and the tears
From malice divorce meets to lost peers
Drowning in a haze of smoke and glasses that never run empty
Bottles of soho cheap vodka and twenty twenty
Spending my penies on thoughts for
Got none pain like the movie have plenty
Like a shotgun
Double barrel fully loaded ready to blow I wanna turn around
And aim at myself been feeling my health I hardly even eat no more
My lunch is munshies from the corner store：tropical fantasy
Me and my family me and my *z used to be tight
And now we see eachother on the block with no pound
Keep it moving you gotta move on
I know I'm doing it right
I'm still livin' hustling life and still here
For all my *z that smoke a pack a day
For all my *z hold the bottle drink the pain away：what type of life is this
For all my *z that getn' the cash and all my *z that chill on the av
Lets keep livin
For all my *z drink the pain away
For all my *z smoke a pack of newports a day：what type of life is this
For all my *z that getn' the cash and all my *z that chill on the av
Lets keep livin
Grew up as a child of an alcoholic sister to schizophrenic
Already inherited one and they both a genetic
When sun falls I gets no sleep nights are filled with party and *
Bicardi and full clips just to deal with it
I got a full heart
But don't feel with it no more
I got fury of a woman scorned
Just live my life like the x-files and trust no body
Forgetting everyone
And now I'm just forgetting the money
Funny how s**t can change and switch up fragile to whip on you
Spent too much of my young life just trying to stitch s**t up
I'm living day by day now every step is play by play hand to mouth
I'm just trying to make the moments count
Eyes stressing my soul Chest roll from a heavy smoking addict since nine：
A n******e addict devoted at it but still
I need some kinda relief
I quit the trees at least
I'm learning *z but I'm slow at it
Always give my motherf**kers the benefit of the doubt
But it seems that everybody is just out for self
I used to love her
But now I gotta make her work for my wealth：I gotta eat
For all my *z that smoke a pack a day
For all my *z hold the bottle drink the pain away：what type of life is this
For all my *z that getn' the cash and all my *z that chill on the av
Lets keep livin
For all my *z drink the pain away
For all my *z smoke a pack of newports a day：what type of life is this
For all my *z that getn' the cash and all my *z that chill on the av
Lets keep livin
From rappin to n******e *z will clap
And *z will fiend from some s**t I never seen to everything I been through
It's like loosing the love of your life twice in the same night
Being deaf for years gained your hearing and loosing your sight
Tryin to shine but just getting eclipse
I'm just tryin to find the perfect words to fall from my lips
Thinking too hard about what s**t has fallen
Mainly the chips hoping by the next time installment
That I'm not attempting to slit wrists
Got nothing down
I work my way up from the bottom to the top of the ladder
Claim what's rightfully mine
Working against time it's been too long
And I haven't had a chance to leave yall yet：I apologise
Getting older and wiser
Seen the picture painted
My destiny faded for this and not for easy times
I put my heart in these rhymes always
Love it or leave it or ready to die
Yea I'm ready